First of all, I am grateful for the artistry of the one and only Jill Scott, not only for blessing me with the soundtrack for the last 15 years of my life, but also for providing me with a title for this post. In the song Le Boom Vent Suite, from her 2011 album, The Light of the Sun, she showcases her ability to express both frustration (in the first part of the suite) and sexiness (in the second half) all in the same song. Miss Jilly from Philly puts it down, as always, but there are a few words that she utters in the interlude that really captured my attention from the moment that I first heard them: "I gotta do what I gotta do, son. Grown woman. Making decisions and choices...." (4:12-4:30 in the video)
Recently, I asked my Facebook friends for their insight on a major decision that I am gearing up to make within the next year or so. Normally, I am not the type of person to expose my personal choices to the court of public opinion, but I thought that it would be interesting to hear what others would do if they were in my shoes. Needless to say, there were almost as many different opinions as there were people who decided to respond, so I am glad that the final decision fully rests upon me, which brings me to the real point of this post.
There were two women who made specific comments about me being in the great position of having choices and options for my life, as if it was some sort of courageous thing. As a single woman who is not responsible for the care of anyone other than a fur baby, I am blessed to be able make my own decisions without having to worry about directly impacting someone else's life, while others may not feel as though they have the same luxury, for reasons that are either real or imagined. It was not until recently that I began to understand that I have been given a gift that has not fully been utilized and I intend to do something to do something about that.
I refuse to let "If I coulda, woulda, shoulda..." become my life's mantra, so I have made the grown woman decision to make more life-affirming choices as I move towards truly living my life like it's Golden. And for that (and Miss Scott) I am grateful.
Between my 49th and 50th birthdays, I am embarking on a journey of gratefulness as there is always something, great or small, to express gratitude for. I have dubbed this journey The Grateful 49 Project, as I will endeavor to share my thoughts in approximately 49 words or less (on most days).